Home Home Home Home Home!!!!!!!

So yes I am home if you couldn't tell. Lol. I came home on Friday, it was so nice. My Dad, siblings, Aunt, Uncle, Grandma, and Great Grandpa all came to see me get off the plane. I was sure I was going to cry but luckily I didn't. To tell the truth it felt surreal still does. I can't believe I'm home and I don't want to wake up from this dream if it is. Another part of me is like boot camp and the military is a big dream, and it never really happened I have been home this whole time and I just went on a trip and I'm not sure where that trip was. I don't know its just weird. When I left Illinois all I could think of was how I'm sure I'm not going to want to come back to this I want to just stay in Idaho. But I don't feel like that all. I have a feeling one day I will return but that time isn't now and won't be for awhile. Many people have asked me if I regret my decision and I just think if you had asked me in boot camp or training I would have said yes but just being back here and remembering why I joined and thinking would I do it again I think yes. Even though its not the life I want for myself in the future its the path I need to take to get where I'm supposed to get. I feel successful and proud of what I have accomplished in just these short few years. I have no regrets. I miss my family more than I can say and wish I could have more time with them I know that is not feasible at this time. Its time to move on, I know they love me and are proud of me, and they know I feel the same way about them for now that is enough. I need to find myself and figure out just who I am and what I want in life. So just realized this whole blog is pretty much my musings on life and me not much funny to say. A funny thing that did happen to me though I was sitting in the car and was texting my brother when my friend banged hard on the window. Scared the crap out of me I turned around and was flipping her off and swearing really bad I was all f*** you, over and over until I realized what I was saying and I slapped myself covering my mouth. She was roaring with laughter darn her. I admit its funny but that's first time I have sworn at someone and released my temper. ha ha oh well its all cool. Well I'm gonna go and spend some time with said crazy friend.

Eyebrows...they make a big difference!!!

4 Days and Awake up!!!

Well I will soon be going home to my lovely Idaho! Its funny you don't realize how much you miss a place until you are gone and sometimes wonder if you will ever see it again. Not exactly the best thing to be thinking when in the military but I think everyone has that in the back of their mind, whether their in the military or not. Today was not a very good day for me. Woke up at 0330 for watch and didn't get off watch till 0745. I went back to bed for a few hours, then texted my two friends to see if we were still going to the mall together. Turns out they were already there. So since that fell through I started to clean things up on my desk to discover that I couldn't my cash. I had about 120 bucks and I thought it was in my uniform pocket not there. Tore up the rest of my room couldn't find it so no luck for me. Looks like I'll be doing really last minute Christmas shopping. So that's my day so far. The really good thing that happened though is my littlest sister Sammy called me she got a new phone and we chatted for awhile and we have been texting each other all day. She makes me smile and makes me happy no matter what mood I'm in. I miss her so much!!! I also got a text message from my old english teacher, she always encouraged me to write hopefully one day I will write a book. Whether or not it will be good who knows but I figure this blog will help me practice writing since I haven't really done much since I got out of high school. During watch today I was so bored that I started reading the navy newspaper and before I knew it I was cutting up the paper and started folding boxes. I made a hand sized  box first and then I just went smaller and smaller so it was a box within a box. When the rovers checked in the last time I had them guess how many boxes I had, the Petty Officer of the Watch was in on my joke we had a "prize" in the very last box. The female rover guesses were all to low, so was the males but the he finally got it. So I started opening the boxes I had 9 boxes that had both a top and bottom. Finally I get to the last one I hand it to him and say look and see your prize. I had cut a circle and the Petty Officer of the Watch had written 1 cent on it. Haha it was awesome to see his face. I gave him the boxes to make up for the joke. He was realllly cute, had to add that in there. ;)
Randomly my ankle swelled up and is black and blue my boots aren't helping. Not much I could go to medical but they would probably give me a boot to wear and put me on hold I don't want that I just want out of here as fast as possible. Pretty much every weekend I'm stuck in this blasted place can't go anywhere cause my friends disappear as soon as liberty is called. Well I better go and get ready for bed, big day tomorrow.

4 day weekend!!!

So this week we got out of school early and liberty was pretty much called immediately so nice. Can't go anywhere though, had duty on Thanksgiving Day. It wasn't to bad. I felt horrible though a really nice couple in my ward had wanted me to have thanksgiving dinner with them but since I had duty I couldn't go and I didn't have their number so I had no way to contact them to cancel. Still feel really bad. For thanksgiving they had over at the pier dinner for us sailors. A bunch of volunteers had come to serve it. It was pretty cool, they had these pictures that kids had drawn and written on saying Happy Thanksgiving and the kids would put a thank you and a bunch of other things like thank you for fighting for us, don't die, what's your favorite weapon, and so on and so on they were so cute some of them just made you want to cry. After I ate since I had nothing else to do I took a nap and got up a few hours later to go eat dinner before my watch only to find out that McDonald's was closed along with everything else so I'm like crap what am I going to eat? I try the vending machines only to discover I have a $20 bill and that's it well that won't work.  Luckily in my two junk drawers (yes I have 2 junk drawers some habits won't die I have to have some kind of chaos in this world, I do organize it once in awhile ahem can't promise it will remain that way usually my organizational mood will last maybe an hour than its done) I discovered I had enough pennies and nickels to buy a muffin for dinner yay me! Watch wasn't to bad it was kind of fun actually. I chatted with quite a few people and nothing was amiss everything looked pretty sat. Easy Day!!! Anyways that's pretty much all I've got for now so see ya later!

For all of the Twilight Fans!!!! Go TEAM JACOB!!!! non creeper stalker!!!

Sundays..gotta love 'em!!!

So, today is my duty day. Which means I can't leave base and I usually have watch. Today I was the glorified bag checker. I kind of had a silent agreement with the liberty log guy to switch so I was doing logs instead. Not much change really. As it got colder outside people would come in shivering and say how cold it was and I would just smile and be like that sucks, in my head all I can think is does it look like I care. Yeah I'm not exactly in the best of moods. So a guy comes in and I'm looking for his name in the logs and he signs and he's making small talk when he sticks his hand out like he was going to shake my hand so I grabbed his hand automatically with out thinking and as I grab it I finally tune in and comprehend what he is saying which is touch my fingers see how cold they are. And there I am the dummy who grabbed his full hand, he gave me a really weird look. I think I did ok in saving it by smiling and complimenting him and telling him his whole hand was cold which seemed to appease him. Still feel dumb right now. Wow I'm really craving a muffin. But I'll be good I'm on a tight budget, the plane ticket home took almost all I got, and I was already hurting from getting my laptop. Pretty much just bidding my time and trying to be really good about spending money. Not the easiest thing to do since like everyone wants to go on shopping sprees and are pretty care free with their money, I'll admit I go crazy on food. Theres just so many things to try you never know if you like it if you don't try it! Just make sure you look at it first and smell it, but there are some foods where the smell is a total misgiving. Like cheese when you get really good cheese in France it smells down right rotten but it has an amazing flavor that just explodes in your mouth! I've been working out, not as much as I did in boot camp but I think I might go back to that. Like today I did a nice 120 three count jumping jacks. Should have put a sports bra on though my back is really sore. Ugh the pains of having to much up front. I had a wonderful tango chat with my family today. It's so hard being away from everyone and not getting to see them like I used to. The military is not a bad way of life and can be very rewarding, I certainly feel really proud to have made it through boot camp even though now looking back I think it really wasn't that bad. But I'm proud of myself and it makes me even more grateful for the accomplishments of others and the sacrifices people have to go through to make something happen. My Dad sacrificed so much to take care of our big family and all of the medical bills, and he still was there for the most important things. If it wasn't for my Dad and how unselfish and hardworking he is and his commitment I'm pretty sure I would have given up a long time ago. No matter the pain and the tears I've gone through its all worth it cause there's a bigger picture when I'm having a hard time I think of my family and how if I just get through this I'm just one more step one more minute, one more second closer to seeing them all again. My family and friends motivate me beyond anything else I wouldn't be here with out any of them! I don't know if my blog is read but if anyone is reading this know that if your family or friend I love you and miss you so much and your what helps me keep going, your the faces I see when I don't want to go another step but that motivates me to take a step and a big one instead. Thank you and I love you guys so much it hurts!!! Can't wait to see you guys for Christmas!!!
I really wasn't planning on going through all of that but it just came out and its exactly what I need to say, I just hope you all know how much I appreciate you guys and the things you guys do for me and others!!! Well I think I'm all spent up now so I will hopefully blog tomorrow. Night!

Last weekend before Thanksgiving weekend!!!

Well sorry its been so long. I've been studying. We had 2 tests this week and the last one is supposed to be our second hardest test out of the 6 tests we take. Its mostly considered hard cause we learn and have to study the whole course in one day and take it the next day. Proud to say I scored a nice 93%!!! I was super surprised I was expecting a 75 but hey I'm not got to complain. So today I learned a valuable lesson in McDonald's. I went and got my usual pineapple mango smoothie and my Angus Swiss and mushrooms snack wrap but then I was like well instead of getting two snack wraps of the same(even though I absolutely love them) why don't I change it up so I also got a Angus bacon and cheese wrap. So I go over to my table and pull out the bacon and cheese I glanced at it then took a humongous bite...One chew and I stopped and looked really looked at my wrap, see I was expecting this wrap to only have bacon, cheese, and an Angus pattie in a taco wrap. but no this snack wrap had the workings of a full hamburger complete with onions, mustard, lettuce, and pickle, my least favorite combination the very smell makes me want to hurl. So needless to say I got that piece out of my mouth right quick and and took a good swig of my pinapplemango smoothie. Lesson learned look at your food really look at it and don't judge a food by its description! I stayed inside today just messing around on my laptop and reading and watching movies. I forgot all about lunch, breakfast was just a muffin but that's ok. I tend to be very forgetful about eating. Something I need to change but hasn't changed in years. Well this post is quite small but I'm tired so...Night everyone!!!

I love puppy dogs!!!! Sooo cute!!!!

Wet trainer...NOT!!!!!

Hey ya'll! SO today was supposed to be a absolutely fabulous day, and in some ways it was but then again it wasn't. A little confusing? I know so let me explain. Today I was supposed to have Wet trainer. Its where we are put in a room and there are leaks where water is spraying out filling the room. We have to plug the holes and stuff. Well the pumps were not working so we had to do it dry, so what should have been a good like 30 minutes of wetness was a quick not even 5 minutes dryness. It was lame!!! Oh well we got to review and we got to see some of the people in the other class who I might add had a really cute guy! Actually there were quite a few cute guys but I was mostly focused on the one he was tall. And made eye contact. Haha I'm a dork what can I say. So that was pretty much my day. Oh but at lunch my friends had a little misunderstanding with me, they decided to get in the hamburger and hot dog line, and I didn't want a hamburger or hot dog (I don't like them, I'll have one once in awhile but its rare) so I went to chinese. My one good friend doesn't like chinese so it was a treat to go get that. So I got my food and was heading to go back where my friends were (mind you they are on the other side of the building) when I see one of the guys from my class sitting by himself and looking a little down so I'm like well that's not cool so I went over and asked if I could sit with him. We had a good conversation turns out he is quite an artist with glass. He would make glass jewelry and those glass colored windows, really cool!!! As we are talking my one friend comes over and is looking all concerned and she said something along the lines of, Matheson are you mad? Are you mad we went to hamburger line? I'm like oh no I don't care what line you guys go to I just saw him here and thought I'd sit down with him. Shes like oh ok. I feel kind of bad...to tell the truth I was surprised they noticed I was gone. I tend to be quiet at lunch, I mostly focus on my food and listen. They have some pretty interesting conversations. So even though wet trainer wasn't hard at all or tiring I was still exhausted struggled trying to stay awake in class review. Well its getting late and I have a test tomorrow, wish me luck! I guess I will write later! Night!

Now thats my kind of weather path!!!

numba 2

Well, my watch was okay, long and kind of boring but it had its funny moments. The guys kept telling me I needed to talk more, they kept saying it over and over until finally I was like I would say something to you if I actually had something to say to you. That shut them up. Ha ha it was funny. The other guy rover turns out he has a psychology major and I guess he felt like he should ask me about my family. I guess, well I know, I have repressed anger about my mother but who doesn't never thought it showed. He told me pretty much what others have been saying don't let her get to me its your life. Very true its just hard cause it seems whatever I do tends to affect the rest of the family. All I have to says Christmas break should be interesting. Anyways off that subject once I got off watch I crashed and slept until about 2 or 3pm, so about 7hours all I have to say is wow didn't think I was that tired but I was out. I'm super excited at the library I got the 8th book of the bloody jack series. I love this series its one of the reasons I thought it would be cool to become a sailor. In this series its about this girl who at the beginning pretends to be a boy on a military ship and becomes a midshipman through a series of adventures and then she becomes a lady, lily of the west, soldier, mermaid and spy. This book doesn't have any fantastical stuff this stuff could almost be real other than one person couldn't possibly have that many adventures and live to tell the tale but who knows its possible. These books are witty and and are fun I would highly suggest them. So excited to read it, well actually I got it yesterday and I'm half way through a 550pg book, so it would be more correct I'm excited to finish it and go on to the 9th one. Well I cant think of anything else at the moment so tootles!

1st post

Hello, Im not sure what to do on this to tell the truth but thought it might be fun to start writing my silly adventures. Actually a more accurate term would be the crazy situations I find myself in. Well to start off I am in the Navy, graduated boot camp on Sep. 30th. Woot *can't you hear the sarcasm dripping from my voice*. All I have to say about boot camp is that it sucks, it wasn't as hard as they say it was like okay this sucks and the longer your there the less it sucks but still sucks. The weird thing is I miss it am I crazy or what? Oh well whats new. I'm now at Aschool. Im learning the basics of engineering and I actually enjoy it, that is when we are actually doing something instead of a CBT (CBT's are these computer modules that someone thought up that spits information out at you and just keeps throwing on more and more in a monotone voice until your practically asleep so far thats the biggest struggle I've had in the Navy staying awake!) Anyways, the people here are very interesting they are from all over, and rarely from Idaho. I have already been asked if our mountains in Idaho have palm trees on them. I was very polite and said no but it was a struggle not to laugh out right and be like really, really palm trees? Haha, its ok its not the worst I've heard. There is a lot of drama here I'm really feeling like its worse than high school which is not something to be proud of at least not in my world. But then again I can't be a true account seeing as with all of my ability I avoid the drama, every once in awhile it finds me but I don't mind doing a quick tango and then drop back to the side lines and watch its much more entertaining from that view, you should try it sometime if you haven't already its hilarious. Well pretty much this post is a bunch of rambling nonsense but thats ok its a start and maybe thats exactly what blogging is... not sure I will have to look up the exact definition to be sure. Well I have watch in 3 1/2 hours which would be at 0345 so I should go. I might write again not sure no promises. But seeing as I'm bored most of the time I most likely will be back and here I go again with rambling good golly its late and I'm tired. Good Night or Morning and all that jazz.