Home Home Home Home Home!!!!!!!

So yes I am home if you couldn't tell. Lol. I came home on Friday, it was so nice. My Dad, siblings, Aunt, Uncle, Grandma, and Great Grandpa all came to see me get off the plane. I was sure I was going to cry but luckily I didn't. To tell the truth it felt surreal still does. I can't believe I'm home and I don't want to wake up from this dream if it is. Another part of me is like boot camp and the military is a big dream, and it never really happened I have been home this whole time and I just went on a trip and I'm not sure where that trip was. I don't know its just weird. When I left Illinois all I could think of was how I'm sure I'm not going to want to come back to this I want to just stay in Idaho. But I don't feel like that all. I have a feeling one day I will return but that time isn't now and won't be for awhile. Many people have asked me if I regret my decision and I just think if you had asked me in boot camp or training I would have said yes but just being back here and remembering why I joined and thinking would I do it again I think yes. Even though its not the life I want for myself in the future its the path I need to take to get where I'm supposed to get. I feel successful and proud of what I have accomplished in just these short few years. I have no regrets. I miss my family more than I can say and wish I could have more time with them I know that is not feasible at this time. Its time to move on, I know they love me and are proud of me, and they know I feel the same way about them for now that is enough. I need to find myself and figure out just who I am and what I want in life. So just realized this whole blog is pretty much my musings on life and me not much funny to say. A funny thing that did happen to me though I was sitting in the car and was texting my brother when my friend banged hard on the window. Scared the crap out of me I turned around and was flipping her off and swearing really bad I was all f*** you, over and over until I realized what I was saying and I slapped myself covering my mouth. She was roaring with laughter darn her. I admit its funny but that's first time I have sworn at someone and released my temper. ha ha oh well its all cool. Well I'm gonna go and spend some time with said crazy friend.