So, today is my duty day. Which means I can't leave base and I usually have watch. Today I was the glorified bag checker. I kind of had a silent agreement with the liberty log guy to switch so I was doing logs instead. Not much change really. As it got colder outside people would come in shivering and say how cold it was and I would just smile and be like that sucks, in my head all I can think is does it look like I care. Yeah I'm not exactly in the best of moods. So a guy comes in and I'm looking for his name in the logs and he signs and he's making small talk when he sticks his hand out like he was going to shake my hand so I grabbed his hand automatically with out thinking and as I grab it I finally tune in and comprehend what he is saying which is touch my fingers see how cold they are. And there I am the dummy who grabbed his full hand, he gave me a really weird look. I think I did ok in saving it by smiling and complimenting him and telling him his whole hand was cold which seemed to appease him. Still feel dumb right now. Wow I'm really craving a muffin. But I'll be good I'm on a tight budget, the plane ticket home took almost all I got, and I was already hurting from getting my laptop. Pretty much just bidding my time and trying to be really good about spending money. Not the easiest thing to do since like everyone wants to go on shopping sprees and are pretty care free with their money, I'll admit I go crazy on food. Theres just so many things to try you never know if you like it if you don't try it! Just make sure you look at it first and smell it, but there are some foods where the smell is a total misgiving. Like cheese when you get really good cheese in France it smells down right rotten but it has an amazing flavor that just explodes in your mouth! I've been working out, not as much as I did in boot camp but I think I might go back to that. Like today I did a nice 120 three count jumping jacks. Should have put a sports bra on though my back is really sore. Ugh the pains of having to much up front. I had a wonderful tango chat with my family today. It's so hard being away from everyone and not getting to see them like I used to. The military is not a bad way of life and can be very rewarding, I certainly feel really proud to have made it through boot camp even though now looking back I think it really wasn't that bad. But I'm proud of myself and it makes me even more grateful for the accomplishments of others and the sacrifices people have to go through to make something happen. My Dad sacrificed so much to take care of our big family and all of the medical bills, and he still was there for the most important things. If it wasn't for my Dad and how unselfish and hardworking he is and his commitment I'm pretty sure I would have given up a long time ago. No matter the pain and the tears I've gone through its all worth it cause there's a bigger picture when I'm having a hard time I think of my family and how if I just get through this I'm just one more step one more minute, one more second closer to seeing them all again. My family and friends motivate me beyond anything else I wouldn't be here with out any of them! I don't know if my blog is read but if anyone is reading this know that if your family or friend I love you and miss you so much and your what helps me keep going, your the faces I see when I don't want to go another step but that motivates me to take a step and a big one instead. Thank you and I love you guys so much it hurts!!! Can't wait to see you guys for Christmas!!!
I really wasn't planning on going through all of that but it just came out and its exactly what I need to say, I just hope you all know how much I appreciate you guys and the things you guys do for me and others!!! Well I think I'm all spent up now so I will hopefully blog tomorrow. Night!
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